I feel so strange sharing this, but feel absolutely compelled to. It may be a bit ramble-y and possibly incoherent in some areas - but that is probably me just making excuses or trying to deflect or something.
I've been dealing with some very new energies lately and I guess I am feeling a little bit alone in them, hence my desire to share here.
About 7-8 weeks back I had a very powerful energetic shift - a few different incidents happened within a 24-hour period that have deeply changed me - and I know they were right on time and part of my healing process - or my ascension process rather.
And when I say ascension, I don't mean that we go up above somewhere, I mean that our frequencies are ascending from lower to higher vibrations. That is the ascension.
It is all happening internally, within our energy field, our auras, our bodies. Nothing is happening outside of us, we are not going anywhere, as sometimes people might think. Heaven is not OUT THERE - it is all right here, within us and on our planet.
So I had a night of powerful downloads and frequencies coming in. This happens sometimes. I get upgrades and downloads in the night - of higher vibration frequencies, of wisdom, of aligning with new timelines.
And then the next day I was in a meditation group and the leader did some energy healing and something HUGE cleared from my heart space. It was very tangible, very big, and it even took her a few passes to fully clear it out.
The next day everything felt different. I was lighter, my defenses were gone, my heart was open, I was feeling and experiencing love. Open, expansive love. For everything. It was delicious and exquisite. And new and amazing and everything I thought it could be.
I have been working to connect more fully with the frequency of love for a very long time and have had glimpses of it here and there. Real, true love - not a mental idea of love - not a mental practice of love. I knew I would know the difference.
I knew what I was thinking was love was absolutely not the love that I knew was possible. Even though I wasn't super familiar with what I was seeking, I knew it existed - or else I wouldn't long for it so desperately. We cannot desire something if we don't already know the truth of it at some level!
It is is easy for us to say "I love you" but it is just a verbal/mental experience - we don't actually feel it in our hearts. In general anyway. Of course some people are most definitely experiencing true love - and they know it.
So here it was for me - in a really big way. And it continued. And continued. And continued. For days and days and days. For over a week I was in this state - open, expansive, calm, serene, knowing that absolutely everything was perfection, I was held, I was loved, I was love.
This completely changed everything and how I was showing up in the world. No more efforting and striving. No need to prove myself worthy or look outside myself in any way to get what I needed. Absolute trust, confidence, faith in how everything was unfolding. In the present moment. Glorious.
Then I went to be with family for around 10 days - and this definitely challenged me and I was not able to maintain the same state of love, but it was still there. It was definitely still there - a major shift had occurred and this was proof. As challenged as I was with family, as some old childhood wounds came to the surface, still there was the underlying new peace and calm and that love anchoring me in.
Fast-forward about a month and I find myself expanding even more. Love, love, love. A new higher vibration that is simply becoming the norm now. I know we are moving into this New Earth consciousness and I've been talking about it for awhile and I've been doing the work, but damn - I am actually starting to see it and feel it and experience it. Fully embodied.
And I see others going through the same experience. We are truly elevating right now and I just had no idea what that was going to look like and now that we are starting to really experience it - OMG. I am just beyond myself right now.
The love I am feeling and the freedom from fear and the underlying stress and tension that I didn't even realize was there to the extent that it was - is absolutely liberating.
I am on the verge of tears so much lately - from feeling so blissful - and so held - and so confident in this process. Starting to really feel that Unity Consciousness that is the TRUTH of our being.
I have known so much of this at a mental level, but to feel it and experience it so viscerally - body, mind & spirit - is so freaking amazing.
So I feel strange sharing about this because, for one, I know I do not have words to do it justice, and two, it may not be your experience right now at all, so it may just sound crazy. I don't know.
From what I am hearing though, many people are feeling and experiencing some pretty radical shifts. Old patterns and energies and behaviors and desires are just falling away.
We no longer have the same urge or desire to adhere to some of the old fear-based ways of being. The over-doing, the over-achieving, feeling unworthy, having to prove one's self. It is just falling away.
We are shifting into a new way of being in the world. One that is more in alignment with the truth of who we are - which, at our core, is absolute love.
I have had experiences of this love frequency, but it was fleeting. Like a heavenly, glorious taste that all-too-soon faded back into the ether. Now it feels like it is here to stay. It is becoming the new normal.
How crazy is it when the thing you've been praying for and calling in and putting so much effort into finally arrives? I hardly know what to do with myself. I've just been in so much peace and feeling so much love for me, for you, for all that is.
It is weird!!!! I feel so strange sharing this because it feels so strange to be sharing about love. We are so much more comfortable sharing about the stressful things in life.
I think this is going to start becoming more and more normal though as we continue to move more into these higher frequencies and vibrations of love, joy, grace, ease, flow, peace, gratitude. This is where we are headed as a collective.
And I will get more comfortable sharing about love - which is ultimately what we are all trying to get to. True, authentic, no-strings-attached, unconditional love - for ourselves, for each other, for this beautiful planet.
This is why we adore our animal friends sooo much. They are all about this unconditional love. They have much to teach us!
So, I guess that is it for now. Like I said, this has just been pouring out and over-flowing - I just couldn't hold it in any more - no matter how weird I might sound!
Love shouldn't sound weird though! So I am owning it, rockin' it out, spreading it, marinating in it, being in love.
Here is a picture of me in Magical Miracle Vroomie (Vroomie for short!) - my awesome little converted shuttle bus home. I love Vroomie so much! She has taken me on such magical adventures. I adore life on the road.
I trust that is supporting this shift in such a huge way too - and was definitely a major factor of my leaving behind life in the city and the old routine. It was stale and stagnant and oppressive. I was ready for nature, freedom, to drop the routine.
It has allowed for so much growth, transformation, evolution. Nothing like completely shaking up your life and kicking it to the curb to give you an entire new perspective on life and self and Source.
I had to let go of the old to fully allow in the new. And I had no idea that simplifying my life sooo much was going to be as liberating as it has been. Turns out I just don't need so much stuff and living in the city can be quite a distraction from ourselves.
If you ever find yourself itching to pack up your bags (and pretty much everybody I talk to says that this is their dream too!) and hit the open road - I couldn't recommend it more highly. It is a total game-changer.
Take a chance, let go, see what wonder awaits you.
I already knew what city life was all about - and what pretty much every day was going to look like - with some minor variations. Out here is a whole new world and every day is something fresh and new and amazing.
Far surpassed my wildest dreams for this adventure.
Okay, that got long! Feeling called to bed. I love you. I wish you peace and love and so much joy in your hearts!
And how about you - What major shifts might you be moving through? How is any of this resonating for you? Drop your comments below! I would LOVE to hear!!!
Thank you for reading. Wishing you so much love as well. Excited for us to all wake up to the truth of our existence - which is that there is nothing here but love!!! ~ Saidi 💗💗💗